• possession

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  • break concepts

    There is a tension between how we want to move and the concepts we move by. Concepts become inadequate. Break them and with the shards puzzle something more beautiful & functional together.…

  • taste

    There are many ways to look and perceive our experiences. Instead of seeing them as good or bad, you could look at what you experience, your emotions for example, the same way you look at taste. Some foods taste bitter, some taste sweet, some taste salty, some taste spicy, etc...…

  • epilepsy

    I am wondering about the epileptic moments I experienced in the past. I was drained, physically and mentally, when I went through such an epileptic moment. My muscles contract so strongly that I was left drained, or rather almost knockout. It felt as the most intense physical…

  • emotion for you

    It can not be denied that the emotions you feel, go through you and not necessarily through the other. Somehow this emotion is there only for you. Not for the other. The emotion that you feel is the one flowing through you and for you. We can see purpose in that. What if emotion…

  • movement

    Movement, all (you experience) is movement, from A to B to put it simple, whatever those points may represent. An object is not hot nor cold, there is only hotter than and colder than. To state an object is hot, it is more so a statement that you are perceiving an object hotter…

  • relationship

    A relationship is a relation, a connection, between two things. The form, the shape, the characteristics, the colour, of the relationship is influenced by both. It is easy, for most, to like sweet food. My relationship towards sugary foods is of a loving kind. It is shaped this…

  • to see again from the start

    I wish to look as clearly as I am capable at my experiences. Because it is easy to get caught up into mental view of reality. A view of how things are and supposed to be. And it is easy to be caught up, as all aspects of my life seem to be soaked with or build upon…

  • you will listen

    It is assured, you will listen, eventually.…

  • all is perfect

    To see a thing as perfect has more so to do with your relationship towards it. All is seen as Perfect So why all this to talk about perfect? Well, the concept of perfect is not something that stands on it's own. First of, things just are. You might judge them, label them,…

  • the last story

    I desire to write something. To tell a story. To share a viewing and in the end to be a demonstration of it. To become your ever changing believes, to become ever changing, to be it. To close the loop, to change form as direct and free as possible. To tell a story that will make…

  • expand concept

    To take what is and all that comes forth as natural. To take it as the reference and wrap a working concept for the mind around it. Not doing so the other way around. To see that much conflict inside is because of a mind holding on to concepts that are not inline with the…

  • outgrowing the story

    She promised to be here at six. She does not pick up her phone. I get a call from her friend, she's driving towards her. I don't get it, we talked about it and she said she was going to pick me up. I bought the tickets already. Did she forget again? What is she doing? It just…

  • daring to learn

    Can you do it? Question your solidified-like beliefs? Can you even touch them? Nudge them? Have those beliefs rested there your whole life? Never to be molded, shaped or changed. Did that stagnation/rest bring rust and causes them to be stuck. Is the act of questioning them, the…

  • learn and teach

    I teach/speak/give/share because it brings opportunity to unravel more of my own believes/mind/self. To finetune and expose/share my own understanding with more clarity, with more essence. Teaching is Learning to share/penetrate more effectively/efficiency. I listen/receive…

  • extracting more

    Can you do it? Seeing through the noise? Can you listen, can you feel, or do your thoughts start to scream? Do your thoughts start to judge? Can you see through the noise? Can you see through the form? Can you see only that which is serving you? Can you focus only on that what…

  • turn it around

    What if we can see it as a breathing in of the world, of Earth. Just as you able to breath in. There comes a point where your lungs are so full that you have to come up with a new action. The tension builds and you are guided, to invent something else. You have to, as tension…

  • widen perspective

    Not to be in conflict with the world around you, but to ever widen your perspective and to ever change your believes, so it does no more. What you will find is more, more and more of your choosing.…

  • exposure

    How exposure is fundamental for maintaining or growing the acquired and for acquiring the new. I wonder if there can be any of it without exposure.…

  • teacher disappears

    Intimate teachers disappear when the lesson is learned.…

  • a story it remains

    Even if the story told lacks the qualities of a good story, even when what is told is dry, logical, scientif, barebones, convincing and straight to the point, even then it still remains a story.…

  • eating healthy fruit

    Why would one eat rotten fruit? Why would one beat down all the undesired fruits? It can be seen as a waste of energy, as it is nonsensical, illogic, and does not contribute in anyway to what you desire. Instead, just let all be and consume/focus/interact with what you do desire…

  • infinite stories

    A story: a tale - a belief - a thought - a song - ... They all point towards a process a pattern, just as words point to a concept. They never touch of what is spoken of, they merely point towards. An event, it happened, a certain story is told and one feels bad. Another story is…

  • love and understanding

    To see that when you only listening to what you think is love, is most of the times not helpful regarding the bigger picture. That it needs a balance, a balance between your kindness and your wisdom. My idea of love will not save the world, but it will in combination with wisdom.…

  • consume

    We are meant to consume. We consume food, air, thoughts, sunlight, ...…

  • reactive

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  • see through the noise

    To become more alert, to become more focused. To see that there is and maybe always will be noise. That in noise lays the very potential. That it is for you to filter through the noise and see what is true for you. That it is something you can train. Something you can cultivate.…

  • stagnation rots

    To write about stagnation. How healthy things flow. The blood in your veins and the water in your pond.…

  • like flexing muscle

    The more you use a muscle at a certain task, like weightlifting or climbing, the more it will grow. Depending on the activity the muscle will form in a certain and best suitable way. It does so within it's own capabilities & limits. A muscle can be come bulky and powerful for…

  • losing

    To talk about the fact that a thing deteriorates when it is no longer fed. That there is truth in the saying, what you do not use you lose. But more in the way that there is no purpose to invest in a thing that is not used. It makes no sense to do so. It makes no sense to water a…

  • packaging

    To come to a point where package does not matter anymore. It is enjoyed, but it does not move you anymore if you do not desire it.…

  • to discriminate

    Nothing yet…

  • to read behind the lines

    To read behind the lines. To come to a point where the story does not matter anymore. It is more a form that is based on something beneath. The read and interprete not the symbols or words given, but to see what they represent. To come to a point where form is merely form, to…

  • movement generates

    To run on a hot day and to taste the water on your lips. To drink water and to find it to taste sweeter then other times. Water is not sweet, The movement is making you experience sweetness. The movement from something salty to less saltier. The movement from something…

  • a bit of everything

    It's genius, the design, the simplicity, the complexcity, the beauty of it. I love to dream of a world where simplicity rules. Where the complexity is inside us. Because we have the power to automate behaviours. To focus upon a behaviour and shape it, till it's automatic once…

  • language reflect insight

    That there is no good or bad, nor hot or cold. That a thing is not something but the thing itself. That it is easy to come to such a conclusion as you realise that peoples can have many different judgements or experiences of the same thing. One person finds bungee jumping scary…

  • speaking from experience

    It feels easy to talk in a way that things just are. That things are the way things are. That it feels more vulnerable to talk in a way that reveals how you experience a thing. You reveal it anyway. You reveal how beautiful you look at the world, you reveal anyway how you see the…

  • drawing test

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  • source of thought

    Where thoughts come from. How I can look at them. All I know is that they come to me, they arise in me. When they do, in the intimacy of the mind, it is easy to claim them as mine. As if a thing 'only' granted to you is for that reason your possession. (In a way yes, it possesses…

  • animal skill

    To write about the opportunity to maintain skill. The opportunity to extend and train skill. To look at animals, the ones that live among us, and how they are often robbed from their opportunity to maintain their skills. From the premade honeycomb to the herbless grazing fields.…

  • helping kitten

    To write about the cat that did not want to come down the stairs. How it is easy to feel the urge to pick up the cat and carry it down stairs. What is helping, what is aiding? Why do we do it? And are we really helping?…

  • independent animals

    To write about dogs or pets in general. That they live in our world now, our rules. That we introduce them to many more different situations and environments. That they become more aware as well. That we draw more and more fear out of them. But that we make them so dependent of…

  • nurturing plants

    To write about how we nurture plants. How we lovingly water and support our greenhouse plants. That we support them so much that they become dependent on the human actions. What is acting lovingly? Nurturing a thing into dependence? What is helping and aiding really? Where does…

  • world of clay

    How the world, as it is now, can be seen as a child's attempt making it's first object in clay. How the world and the way we live our lives are just the very first shape. We seem to be adding and adding to the clay but never really doubt the fundament, or the courage to change…

  • building home

    Writing about how I would like to create my own habitat. How I would start from almost nothing. How I would enjoy the process of making my habitat. How the continuous process of shaping my habitat would be one of the most fulfilling and creative. To insist on simplicity, on…

  • endlessness

    To talk about endlessness in things. That you can see it in everything. That there is no end to things, it just keeps on going. That the atom was once the smallest thing known to man. But even there is no end. It seems impossible to find an edge, a sort of wall, that says end of…

  • nurture what you choose

    To write about how we give rise to the things we feed. How to clearly see that and use it. How we nurture by our actions. Whether it is doing a thing, thinking about a thing, focussing upon a thing, laughing with a thing, ... That one can become aware of where he is directing his…

  • write request

    A dead end, an unwritten page. that needs writing. A reader can request me to write this particular page, about this particular topic.…

  • nurturing idea

    To write about the motivation to create a symbol, a label, a reference. A symbol that represents an idea, a vision, a dynamic, a way to look at a thing. A symbol that shares a functional and beautiful idea. A symbol that underlays many things we create and do. A symbol that keeps…

  • comfort from within

    I wish to tap more into the potential of my body and in doing so making it ever more comfortable with it’s surroundings. It is not a quest to search for the boundaries and to break limits, but more so a path of curiosity and belief that the body can become ever more capable. To…

  • natural

    We all live on this world, and we came forth out of this natural environment. This complex natural process has put us forth and within that process we still remain. A man sees, that with exceptional rainfall, the water overflows his pond. It is a natural behavior, but in his mind…

  • language as a navigator

    I wonder how language can be used as a navigator. Because I am not so interested in the story told, but more so of what lays underneath. I believe a mentor can navigate a pupil through words towards a place which can not be described by words. I feel it at times, to see and…

  • backwards

    It is hard to recall many examples but many have entered my mind. It feels that in many cases, us humans, proceed with our lives based on certain understandings. Sometimes I feel things work out better for us if we flipped things around. Enter a relationship not because of what…

  • joyful baby

    During the first time I saw Her, only a few months old, I was already fond of the way She interacted with the world. The idea is that She laughs, because She is happy. Most of the time she is already in a space of joy. Most of the time she is happy is not because of something,…

  • style overview

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  • to meet your maker

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  • earth

    We all come from this earth. We all live our lives generation after generation on this planet. We often refer to our planet as mother earth because she is the one that made it possible for us to happen. We and everything else on this planet came forth out of her. Without her we…

  • picking fruit

    To walk into a garden, looking around and see all the fruits. To pick a fruit of your choice and eat it. It is that simple. There are many fruits but I only consume the fruit of my choice, the other fruits I leave hanging. To visit my mind, seeing all the thoughts that come to…

  • opening the door

    During a hike recently, or some odd moments in the past, I was able to think or talk in a rather flowing way. Thoughts just came and one led to another. Now that I am here in front of my keyboard, I feel stagnation, thoughts do not come out. Thoughts do not come to me out of the…

  • handeling my thoughts

    This morning I had a good routine. I woke up, washed my face and continued doing some breathing exercises. I continued with some meditation and it felt rather good. Just being still and watching my breath, the vipassana scanning takes too much effort for me right now. The…

  • I can not let go

    I worry, I worry about letting go. Because you are confused, the worry is not what you think it is. The worry is your guidance. As for any emotion. If you worry or are stuck in any undesired emotion you most likely are confused why these emotions come to you and why you think…

  • change your view instead

    You might be stuck in believing that things are this or that. When you realise that you see a thing this or that, As you find out that many different people see the same thing differently, then you understand that you have the power to change how you judge, see, look at your…

  • consuming believes

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  • doing it already

    Take your arm. Grab it with your hand and squeeze it, making it somewhat unpleasant. The unpleasantness, the hurt, is a signal, a feedback. It is a direct and effortless guiding. No learning is needed, as you know and loosen your grip for the hurting to stop. The hurt is your…

  • escaping the story

    Can one escape the stories? Do without? Or is it just a matter of enjoying them, as an extra layer of experience. Knowing how to distance from them, seeing them from what they are, so you can never really hold on, in a needy way, to whatever you have been told.…

  • let go just breathe

    The act of letting go is easier when you believe that the act of letting go is accompanied by welcoming something new. When you do, you can move aspects of yourself with more trust, with more ease. The process is similar to your breathing. There is no fear involved in letting the…

  • move

    Move your mind, Move your body, Move your heart, Move all that is you, Just move!…

  • moving away from thought

    More and more you will trust to let go of how you think things are. You'll find it easier and easier to let go of your perspectives as soon negative emotions accompany it. You'll eventually favor feeling good over holding on to thinking in a particular way. Because you now see…

  • welcome back discomfort

    I wish to tap more into the potential of my body and in doing so making it ever more comfortable with it’s surroundings. It is not a quest to search for the boundaries and to break limits, but more so a path of curiosity and belief that the body can become ever more capable. To…

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