outgrowing the story

She promised to be here at six. She does not pick up her phone. I get a call from her friend, she's driving towards her. I don't get it, we talked about it and she said she was going to pick me up. I bought the tickets already. Did she forget again? What is she doing?

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It just when there are these times when a undesired event happens. You are partly mostly ignorant about the whole perspective of this event. It is easy for the mind to come up with story, one that is similar to the many that went before, one that does not feel so good.

You can change the story, while still being in ignorance of what is really happening. A story that makes you feel better-good. It does not take much to realise that the event did not change, only you additude/story/belief towards it. Knowing there is always a better story, a more grant, a more loving, a more exciting one.

To see that every time and again, it is possible to change yourself so any external event makes you feel good/better/great. To see that the story you tell yourself is just a tool, the belief told is just a stepping stone, to move yourself more into a more desirable state. To realise, after time and repetition, that you have outgrown these tools, that you no more need a story. You do not need to convince yourself. Because you just know, by experience, that every time and again, there is a perspective, there is a point of view, that makes you feel better. With that their is a granded/wider and more simple belief you then cultivate. The belief that all is good.

You took of the side wheels of your bike and for the first time you do not need aid. Whatever calamity comes your way, you now, deep down, that it is ok, you know that there is a perspective/story about this event that makes you feel good. But you do not need the story anymore, you just place yourself in that state without the use of a tool-aid-stepping stone. You become independend in how you feel because you start to believe because you have outgrown the stories.

To come to a point where, just as a child does not need it's bedtime story anymore, you do not need a story anymore. You still enjoy them as you please and you see them for what they are. But you are not dependent on them anymore. You are free from them. Because you have outgrown them. The middle man, the story, is no longer needed. Your belief has taken over. A belief unshakable, molded by your own conscious choice of stories.